suzi- i have to tell you. i am disappointed in your blog. i really
thought it was about the art, not vulvas and strippers and lesbians.
you do such great art. what happened to it? I live in NYC, so don't think i am some sheltered girl. believe me, i am not. i just think you need to get a check on how you want to be represented.
corporations don't really wanna be associated with vulvas.
sincerely,
a concerned fan
Ooh good letter! This could make a fabulous post!
HIP CHICKS WITH TATTOOS ARE PEOPLE TOO
Im sorry if the Vulva project made you uncomfortable in any way but it was very important to do. Corporations should care about vulvas! And if you know me at all, since you watch my videos, you know I dont care about getting a book deal or being on tv if that means following a formula and being something Im not. I am vulvas strippers and lesbians. All those things are GOOD THINGS, to me, in my world. And if that is not for everyone that is more than ok there are a plethera of safe mixed media artists out there who can spit out book after soulless book and everyone can have a nice successful boring little ride. Don't get me wrong those books are needed but so is my type of thing.
I could do it, I could write a nice little poetic blog and pretend I dont think about the things I think about and didnt have panic attacks for 20 years and could barely leave the house. I could pretend Im acceptable and fall in line and maybe Ill be lucky enough for a company to host my show and tell me what to say. I could make lots of money and everyone would have yet another sterile bullshit craft show to watch. Sure yay were do I sign up. OR I can be myself, make friends, and show them how to layer and make faces. I can be there at 1 in the morning in the chat room and listen when another woman feels alone. When she tells me her life does not look like the ones on TV and she has thoughts that are not sterile or on television. We talk and I get her to laugh and she doesnt feel so alone. If I can do that? If I can reach one woman whos felt as shitty as I have my whole life, who feels powerless and confused and not good enough...ahhhh...that is what makes me spend all my money on editing programs and puppets and all the crazy crap it takes to make my chicks laugh and feel whole.
I do technique in my workshops. I take teaching very seriously. But there is more to why Im doing this than that. I have strong personal convictions and I WANT vulvas on TV. I want MORE lesbian shows I want GAY MARRIAGE. I dont want another show where woman are told to shut up and be good little girls and continue to play that suffocating little part.
Im not for everyone and Im cool with that. Im free. Imagine, I can say what I want do what I want film what I want, and there is a group of people who like it. I've found home.
I appreciate your concern I know it comes from a place where you are looking at a bigger picture and see more for me, but just becuase I can go that big doesnt mean I want to. Ya? I am more than happy with how things are going and I hope I can continue it in the future. I think I've already proven that you do not have to change who you are to become successful. There are plenty enough people who will identify with you, you don't have to become a generic version to try to please everyone.
The vulvas will go away on valentines day when I put something else up but I assure you! They'll be back!
xo
Suzi
