What if this was it? This life you have now, this is what you get. This is all the money you are going to make, this is as pretty as you will ever look, these are your things. Could you be content?
con-tent > adj. in a state of peaceful happiness
Of course you could. With the realization that in no way are you ever going to get something more, the stuff you have starts to look pretty good. If you were stranded on an island, whatever possessions you had with you would become treasures. If diagnosed with a terminal illness, the day itself would become a gift. Peacefulness about where you are in life is all about perspective.
Take me. I'm a striver. I've made big plans and some of them I made come true. I wake up in the morning and see the potential in everything. It is what makes me an excellent teacher. I do not accept limits in myself or anyone else. I know we all have the ability to make amazing things happen. I don't care what you think is wrong with you, I mean you, too.
But because of this, unfortunately, for me, now never feels like enough. There's always something that could be better. Everything can be improved, and if there is a flaw, I look at it like a black fly in my white potato soup. I want perfection. It has been one week since I had any caffeine or white sugar. I started guzzling both the moment my father left our earth three years ago. Cupcakes and caffeine, baby, that's how I dealt with the pain in my throat from crying, the ache in my belly that could not hear his voice. Speed baby, I couldn't have whiskey so I had caffeine. And while that was useful for grief, it helped me keep the pieces of me together, it did not help my ability to sit still for more than 2 minutes. But after this week, now is nice. I can sit and not shake. I can breathe deeply without the need to run around the block. I can be calm.
Calmness is key in noticing how great the present really is. If you are hyped up and anxious, thinking about how good the past was, manic about the future, now is going to seem like, meh. You can't compare now to the past. I've had my own apocalypse - there was then, and this is now. "You can't go back, Bob." It's never going to be like it was, but that doesn't mean it can't be great. Now holds some good stuff, too.
Truth is, I am a simple girl. I want my little house and I want sunshine. I want lemonade and to paint in the sun. I want to have small tea parties with girls who like to read books and do crafts. I want a garden and to grow food and have solar power and a composting toilette. (I even have a composting toilette song!). And yes, this is all in the future too because pretty much I've stayed in the basement grieving for three years. But spring is coming. I no longer want to worry about the future, I want to wake up to the beauty of now.
What's good about now?
This is my landing page for the week.
I set up the Week-at-a-Glance page on left, menu page on right.
Many of us have big dreams, but most of us won’t attain them. Why is that? I finally decided to take control of my life and make my dream a reality! So, you ask, how are you going to do that, Suzi? Easy - by MAKING it happen!
Forever it seems I have longed for my own little travel trailer - a space all my own that I could decorate to the hilt and spend all day inside making art. But then I got tired of dreaming about something that I had convinced myself would never happen. No more dreaming. I am going to be proactive from now on in making my dream a reality, and you can come along for the ride!
Step One: Define the dream
Wanting a “little travel trailer” was too obscure to really visualize. I wanted to see the actual trailer in my mind’s eye in order to manifest it in my life. What did I do? I went to an RV show! I got lots of literature, looked at hundreds of trailers, talked to lots of knowledgeable people, and picked the trailer of my dreams!
I found a dealership locally that sells it! Paris RV
Step Two: Do your research; start making actual plans
I contacted the people I needed to, got actual measurements, found out how much money it would take to start the ball rolling, and started taking the necessary steps to get things done (new driver’s license, check out crowd funding options, etc). I then picked the exact location the trailer would sit. I also got miniatures to set up so I can visualize my dream while things are being done behind the scenes to make it all happen. I also started reading everything and anything I could get my hands on that would allow me to make informed decisions every step of the way.
Step Three: Start collecting necessary items to make the dream a reality.
I’ve been researching the types of things I want for my trailer for a long time, but now I’m going to actually make up my mind about them and start collecting them. I decided on the color palette I’m going to use to decorate, and am going to start buying the things I want. Once the trailer is delivered, I plan to get it camera ready right away!
One of my first purchases will be a little kitchen set from Huckleberry Vintage on Etsy.
Carol got a turquoise and red set for her kitchen, but mine will be mint green and pink. Check out all of their awesome shabby chic stuff! I want to support real artisans as much as I can as I collect and purchase the things I’ll need for my trailer. You notice I said “my” trailer. If you want something to come to fruition, the words you speak have to line up with that.
Now that I am teaching art online again, I am pleasantly reminded about what is underneath my students' creative urges. For them, it is not just about making beautiful paintings, but a desire to change the world. In a sea of online teachers, I have noticed a similarity in the women who choose to learn from me - they see a kindred soul. I may just be a girl in the world, not thinking I am special, but my art can be the gift that brightens someone's dark day.
Shirah has been my student for some time and I love having her around. Anyone would. Just like her books, she is FILLED with light and love and happiness, with loving words for everyone. This, my friends, is what sets the Mixed Media Community apart from traditional art genres - by our very nature we are inclusive. We mix mediums like little alchemists in our studios, and welcome a mix of personalities and skill levels in those we surround ourselves with.