Scary things can pile up, the older you get. We begin life fresh but experiences layer over each other and soon you are filtering through past pain instead of seeing life as new. It is true that if you see a hole in the middle of the street you learn to walk around it rather thank thinking, "This time it will be different," but it is not the same as letting holes scare you into believing there is one on every street, or sidewalk or grassy meadow you walk on.
Your fears are meant to protect you, so is your inner critic. They protect you from holes and shifty boys and whatever else that is waiting to get you. But you can't let fear rule your life. Here I am balancing all my cups, keeping my life together, and I'm doing a great job. I might drop some but so far I haven't. Nothing scary is going to disturb my balance. I can see a threat, breathe deeply, and carry on.
From me to you - do the right things to keep you peaceful and in balance, eat well, sleep well, smile, and you will be able to live the way you want. Holes and all.