Love wins! Such a remarkable event I had to capture it in a painting.
The woman represents our legal system - Lady Justice in her crown, wearing the rainbow hair of Pride, symbolizing all the different types of love. Her face is sympathetic and so are her clothes - it has taken a long time to win this fight and she grieves for all that went before and died before their basic human rights were acknowledged.
As many of you know, I lost my little man, Finney, on April 13th, just over a month ago. I am still reeling from that loss, and having Gigi to love and care for is about the only thing that keeps me going these days. Unfortunately, those days may be numbered.
When we moved to Utah, it was mainly because of Gigi’s poor health. She has been able to get exceptional care here, and while Finney’s health started to decline, Gigi was able to hold her own on several medications (although you can hear her heart murmur from across the room). Since Finney died, Gigi has not been doing as well, and today I had to take her to the emergency animal hospital. It looks like we are running out of options, but I’ll know more next week.
At any rate, I am far too preoccupied with Gigi’s health at this time to give 100% of my time and energy to Paint and Chronicle: My Sacred Narrative that I have been sharing every single week with you since the beginning of December of last year. Rather than continue in a half-assed and rushed manner, I’m going to put the remaining weeks on hold, indefinitely. Gigi and I were supposed to be taking a trip to Southern California next week, but at this time it seems doubtful that she will be able to travel. Right now, I just want to spend as much quality time with Gigi as possible. I’m sure you’ll all understand.
Prompt: You are a lot stronger than you think you are.
Goal: Exercise in whatever way you choose.
Prayer: My gym is my church. My sweat is my prayer. My strength is my salvation.
Quote: "Strength doesn’t come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn’t." Rikki Rogers
Whatever exercise that you think is fun, do it. Don't think, just do. Anything that you normally don't do counts. Like my excursion to the farm. I walked around for two hours petting cute, and extremely smelly, fur babies. Heaven. I was sore for two days so that means I was working it! I still plan on swimming and beginning hoop dance lessons every week. No, I probably won't be entering any fitness contests anytime soon, but this is way more then I have done for the last three years. Pick a day to do something fun, that gets you out of a chair and off Facebook, and write it in your journal. You can write about the experience in the pages that follow your layout page for the week. Or just bitch and say SUZI PICK A BETTER TOPIC FOR NEXT MONTH.
So, last week I realized from my writing, holy crow, if i don't move my body people are going to mistake me for furniture. Whether we think we look hot or not is not the issue; if we don't move, we die. Physical activity flushes out bacteria from our lungs and our blood. It cleanses us. We have to start moving. I do, at least.
Exercise though, meh, ouch, I'd rather play in my journal. I know I need to, but I loathe it, especially going to a gym and any formal exercise in general. I am also *indubitably out of shape. When I move my limbs, they make a creaking sound. Things are getting bad there down under my skin, I know it's time, but how will this time be different from all the other 'this' times?
My solution: I am not exercising, I am having fun!
This week, I want you to make a list of activities that sound like something fun to do. Then pick a few and write down anything you need to make it happen for week 21. Like, there is a heated pool I can swim in for 2 bucks at a local hospital. I need to find out the times it is available, get directions, and put my bathing suit in a duffle bag with a towel. Write the steps out in your journal for everything you want to do.
Other ideas I have are Hoop Dancing, gentle yoga, and flying a kite. These are all activities that sound like fun to me, so I am planning to try them.
It is also fun to have a reward in mind for forcing yourself to do things that are hard. My reward is to get a massage. If money is an issue, look up a local massage school. They have clinics, and although they don't have as much experience as a professional, the price for a student is much, much lower: $35.00 compared to $150.00.
I have NEW JOURNAL STAMPS! I opened the box of them just this morning so I haven't done much with them, but expect to see much more in the next few weeks. You can find them here: